This week is a mess for me, so many things happened that I have no idea how to handle them, starting losing my direction. =(
Since a couple of weeks ago, I started to have rashes all over the legs, and so I went to see doctor. She said it might be because I bought a new pants and I didn't wash it before I wore it for the first time, and she gave me some lotion, cream and pills. It had already horrified me when I learnt that there is high possibility to have countless of bacteria in a new cloth or pants, and that I have to wash it before wearing it. Yet it's just the beginning,many worse things are waiting ahead for me. The pills that I had to eat have many side effects, one of it is that it will cause drowsiness. Oh my gosh...I couldn't afford to sleep all the time, with so many stuff lying in front of me that I had to finish it....blah blah blah...To cut my story short, after two weeks, after doing whatever I could do (applying cream and lotion for at least 3 times a day, taking medicine, etc), my skin condition did not get better, yet it's getting worse. My stomach starting to feel burning whenever I apply cream on it, I would get tired and short of breath if I laugh too hard or talk too much, the rashes are spreading to my whole body. It's damned scary, I start to hate my body, I can't concentrate on the study, I start to become verymoody, starting to lose patience. So this morning I went to see doctor again. She had no idea why my condition can become so serious (me either), so she startsspeculating what could be the causes for my rashes, and fianlly she said it could due to my detergent. The detergent I am using might not be very good, and it could be because I put too much detergent and so the detergent was not completely washed out and it left on my clothes. WHAT???? Ok, fine, it doesn't make much sense at first to me, but I accept it, because it could be true. This time, she prescribes me a different medicine that would have stronger effect. And guess what, the side effects of this medicine are even worse. It will cause difficulty in sleep, nausea, nervousness, indigestion, more susceptible to illnesses (and it's important for me to away from people who are sick, like having a cold or flue), etc...Oh my goodness! It scares me to take the pills, but I still have to take it, because I really have no idea what else I can do to get over the rashes.
Besides that, I guess I have an argue with my sister, even though we did not really fight verbally or face to face. I wanted to buy a new laptop, I really need a new laptop because it starts to have a lot of problem, it starts to get jammed very frequently, the process starts to run very slow, the memory space is not enough that I have no idea where I should save my document to, etc...I am getting sick with this laptop, plus my unstable mood causing by the rashes, I asked my sister to buy a new laptop to me, but they refuse to do so. I was extremely upset at that time, and so I called my mum and told her that I am going to buy the laptop no matter how. It's fine if they don't want to give me money to buy it, I can find my own to save money and buy it. I don't care... But sometimes it upsets me when I saw my sister name in my MSN online list, yet she never talk to me since then. Fine...fine...fine...I can still be good all by myself...fine...
Then last saturday and yesterday I was so busy meeting the person that can offer me a summer internship, talking to him, listening to his presentation, we went through some practice. Yet I have no idea whether I am capable enough to handle this job or not. A bit helpless now
Then last night, a strange thing happened to me. When I was sleeping, I suddenly felt that there was somebody trying to press me, and I starting to have difficulty in breathing. I was damed scared, and it was damned strange as well. I have no idea what's that, but it happened to me twice since I got here. Was I too tored?
despite all these bad things happened to me this week, there were some good things happened as well. It might sound a bit nonsense beause it's almost spring now, but these few days it was snowing almost non-stop. It was so beautiful and I finally got the chance to make snowman, playing snow with friends at night. Yeah...it was so fun.
This is a crazy week, just hope that the next 2 weeks everything will be smooth to me. I want to enjoy my Spring Break....
I just realize that it's so difficult for me to have a roommate. I have never shared a room with other people before, until one month ago. For the first month, it seemed to be okay, perhaps because my schedule wasnt very tight and i did not have much workload, and perhaps my patience hasnt come to the limit. But now I am really struggling with having a roommate. I am not blaming her, but I just find it hard for me to adjust myself. I know I should have more patience, I shoule be more understanding, but .... I am the person who always do the last minute work, and even when i am not, but I could not stand any noise when I am rushing for my assignment or studying. I couldn't think, I couldn't read properly when there is a noise around, when there is somebody talking for as long as 2 hours. Oh gosh...the worst thing is that this same situation repeats everyday, morning or night. I know she loves talking to her family, I understand how much she miss her family. I know I know...I know all these, but talking to them everyday for at least 1 hour is just ...too much for me.
Is there anything I can do so that I won't get disturbed when studying and at the same time, she can continue doing what she likes to do? Oh gosh...somebody please help me!!!!!!
Pei See, where is your patience????????????????????????????????????
How nice it would be if somebody say or sing this to me. Haha...Happy Valentine to everyone.
Come To Me ~ Celine Dion
I will always love you no matter what
No matter where you go or what you do
And knowing you
You're gonna have to do things your own way
And that's okay
So be free, spread your wings
And promise me just one thing
If you ever need a place to cry
Baby, come to me
Come to me
I've always known that you were born to fly
But you can come to me
If the world breaks your heart
No matter where on earth you are
You can come to me
Don't walk around with the world on your shoulders
And you're highest hopes laying on the ground
I know you think you've gotta try to be my hero
But dont you know the stars you wish upon they fall its true
But I still belive in you
If you ever need a place to cry
Baby, come to me
Come to me
I've always known that you were born to fly
But you can come to me
If the world breaks your heart
No matter where on earth you are
You can come to me
And the seven seas you sail
All the winding road you're on
Leave you lost and feeling all alone
Let my heart be your beacon home
If you ever need a place to cry
Baby, come to me
Come to me
I've always known that you were born to fly
But you can come to me
When the world breaks your heart
No matter where on earth you are
You can come to me
Time flies...time really flies...it is shocking when I realized that I have been here for a month already. ONE MONTH, 30 DAYS. Wow...at least now I can shout out to people that "I SURVIVED" "I HAVE MADE IT THROUGH." Haha...but seriously, I am doing fine here, so no worries, please. I know there is a lot of challenges waiting in front of me, but i can handle them. To live is to overcome challenge. No challenge, no life...
每个人，不论是谁，都会有疯狂失控不理智，尽做傻事的一天吧，我想，尤其是心情不好的时候！当然每个人的发泄方式都不一样，有些人会狂吃，狂看电视，狂玩电玩，尽量把自己麻醉，不去想任何东西。最近的我，有点constantly under pressure, 有赶不完的workload, 每一天都在跟时间赛跑，整个人开始闷了下来，有点失去方向，也病倒了。所以尽管时间已经不够用了，这几天我一直在做些不理智（不理智 is defined here by me as doing something that you aren't supposed to do. However, it's not absolute, it's influenced by the situation. In some situation, doing A is perfectly fine, but in some occasion, it's not) 的东西 --- 就是狂听刘若英的歌，狂在internet 搜寻 Rene Liu 的消息。也才知道其实在很多的网站可以找到关于她的消息， 我就这样不可自拔地一直找，一直看，一直听，也可以一整夜重复听着同一首歌。哈哈。。。这也成为了我reward 自己的方式。也只有她能安抚我，当我感到很烦的时候。
没来美国之前就很想看这部电影，但那时候还没上映。但我真得很想看哦。。。其实我最想收到的包裹就是这部戏，Rene 的 albums & books，但这会成真吗？
ps: I have never thought that writing chinese in computer can beso difficult, used up almost 1 hour to have this short blog. **relieve**
This week has been extremely extremely busy for me, as there were so many assignments &quizzes waiting for me to do. Iwas so busy until I had no time to update my blog, had not enough sleep. I was just rushing here and there, sometimes i didn't even know what i was doing, where should i heading to, etc.
I know I have promised my sis to update my blog and more importantly, upload the photos. And I have so much thing to say, I have been to a lot of places for the past week that I would like to share with you all, but I just don't have the time to update the blog. And I am going to Brainerd later in the afternoon for the weekend. Hurray....so just be more patient with me. I promise I will update my blog after I come back from that Breakaway camp.
Even though there is still a lot of things waiting for me to do, no matter how I'll try to update my blog, even if I have to sacrify my sleeping time. Haha...but obviously the pre-requirement is that I won't fall beck to sleep after the alarm clock ringing. This semeseter would be very challenging for me, but I'll try my best to overcome all of them. This is life...no challenge, no life. =p
